hmms i tried to draw and i couldnt
so i colored
and my ayama waiting picture (actually WIP) is what came out of it
i made an eggbert plushie (turned out cute)
and a pillow

otakon is on friday XDDDDD
WEEEE
yayness
i am going with ~pumpkinking14 and ~kuroi-jisatsu and another one of my friends (not on DA) to the otakon
i rented a hotel room for the weekend and we're all gonna jam out and have some fun


anyone else going to otakon?
hmms


idk
i have to get on a good schedule
instead of going to bed really late (5-6am) and waking up around 2pm
or maybe i shouldnt

idk
im havin fun
i thinks
yup

just having this huge artists block is not helping at all
i havnt been able to draw
it freakin sucks



well byes for now

i think im done
i dont think want to bother anymore
i think ive hit a wall
i just feel hopeless
i feel worthless


i think im just going to give up on art
and go into something uncreative
like math
or
yeah
math
i dont know if i can deal with anything anymore




i just think im done with drawing
i obviously have no future in it

im a mica now
im in the meyerhoff building eating lunch
we just had to try to build a 22ft high newspaper tower
ill update when i can
but ive got a full schedule




...sooo yeah



talk too you when i can



bye

i really like clouds
just thought id tell you
i also like grey
its my favorite color
i like dead flowers
although if i had to pick a live one id say an orchid
my room is an organized mess
more mess than organized
i have drawings spewing out of my doorway
i have nowhere to fit all of them in my room
if i could change one thing about myself it would be all of the fat....
yeah, and the ugly but you cant change that
im a really spitefull person.......pretty mean and heartless
get over it. its the truth
my fashion sence is questionable
even though it doesnt affect me
i listen to both j-rock and j-pop
i love them both....dont make me choose
i am Aya-kun
Liz is Yura-sama
>_> dont ask
i prefer evil characters to good ones
because i relate to them
i am a swords and martial arts sorta girl....lots of blood and gore
not a big fan of romance
i am not "loveable"
more the "ice queen"
i love getting into fights
cant function too well around large groups
people think they know me pretty well
in all honesty theyve only scratched the surface
my scanner hates me
so do a lot of people
i can function in hostile situations and conflicts
better than i can in any others
more of a fighter than a "lover"
my moods can change instantly,
and i can change my personality
i can change outwardly easily
but on the inside im the same twisted person






just thought i tell you a little bit about me





i like eggs and ramen >w<

i just was skimming through one of my sketch books from this year (from around 3 months ago?) and i was looking at my sketchs and my brain was crying

the only thing i could think was:
wtf..... wtf...... wtf... wtf was i thinking when i drew this.....

its so not right, did i actually used to be pleased with this work ? no wonder people
were like:
uhhh >_> yeah dex....this is....uh..good *caugh* no...bad *caugh**caugh*

-A- GOMEN!!!11! sorry for killing your eyeballs
WTF was i thinking drawing like that???




well i guess the only positive thing i can get out of this
is that i have improved ......a bit



ill post a timeline of my work from when i just started drawing "anime" to now
ja matta